Sunday, December 20, 2009

Friday, December 11, 2009

Loneliness.

...5 AM. Tuesday. Nothing left to say, nothing left to feel, nothing left to do. I'm frozen. And lonely. And disappointed. But mainly frozen. I take a look at the corner of the room. No one. I take a look behind me. No one. I take a look besides me. No one. I touch my cheeks. Frozen tears. I take a look at the corner of the room again. I can see it. It is right there. I can see it! It is with me! Right at the corner of the room. I can see it! It's looking at me, I'm looking at it right back. It is smiling. I smile right back. Frozen smile. Bitter smile. Unsmiley smile. But it is a smile, isn't it?!...It's looking at me..."Do you really have to be with me, forever?" - I asked it and tried to look into its eyes. Frozen eyes. "Do you really have to be with me, forever?" I heard someone saying. Was it me? No. It wasn't me. It asked me the same question. It didn't ignore me. It talked to me. It asked me a question, the same question I asked it. It needed an answer, of course. Even though I didn't get my answer I gave it its answer: "I don't know"...Silence. It didn't talk back to me. It didn't answer me. It ignored me...Even loneliness itself ignored me. Even loneliness itself left me all alone.

Monday, November 30, 2009

You could never be me.

You could never use the same power I used. You could never look into their eyes and freeze their smiles. You could never cuddle their souls with your bare hands. You could never lead them to nothingness. You cold never drive too fast without caring about danger's dust. You could never laugh after they cried, disappear after they showed up, wake after they slept. You could never be as empty as me, as cold as me, as filled up with anger as me, as loved by the devil as me. You could never be me. My soul dances in the darkness, my mind hides behind undeadly memories. Memories, cigarette boxes, bitter pain, feisty moans, unwritten letters, unspoken words, sweet tears, fatal exclamations. You could never be me. Don't even try.

Personality Disorder Test.

http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv

My results:

Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Very High
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Very High
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate

My comment: No comment.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

The Tale of the Eagle.


A youth was hunting in the mountains. An eagle flying above him set down on top of a crag. The eagle was especially large and had in its beak a snake. After a while, the eagle flew away from the crag where it had its nest. The youth then climbed to the top of the crag where he saw, in the nest, an eaglet playing with the dead snake. But the snake wasn't really dead. Suddenly it stirred, revealed its fangs and was ready to pierce the eaglet with its deadly venom. Quickly, the youth took out his bow and arrow and killed the snake. Then he took the eaglet and started for his home. Suddenly the youth heard above him the loud whirring sound of the large eagle's wings."Why do you kidnap my child?" cried out the eagle."The child is mine because I saved it from the snake which you didn't kill, " answered the youth."Give me back my child, and I will give you as a reward the sharpness of my eyes and the powerful strength of my wings. You well become invincible, and you well be called by my name! "Thus the youth handed over the eaglet. After the eaglet grew, it would always fly above the head of the youth, now a full-grown man, who, with his bow and arrows, killed many wild beasts of the forest, and who, with his sword, slew many enemies of the land. During all of these feats, the eagle faithfully watched over and guided him.Amazed by the valiant hunter's deeds, the people of the land elected him king and called him "Albanian" which is to say "Son of the Eagle." And his kingdom became known as Albania or Land of the Eagles.

Walt Disney introduces black Princess.


LOS ANGELES: Walt Disney Pictures has introduced its first African-American princess, Tiana, in "The Princess and the Frog." The very premise seems rife with potential for racist stereotyping and cultural insensitivity, but Disney knows what it's doing. The film is set in the past - specifically, New Orleans circa 1913 - a tactic the studio has used before.

Disney looked to bygone eras with its last three films starring non-Caucasian princesses: "Aladdin" (the Islamic Golden Age), "Mulan" (ancient China) and "Pocahontas" (Colonial America). It's a handy way to distance the ethnic characters from modern-day racial land mines. It also allows Disney to base its portrayals not on subjective perceptions but on existing source material.

In "The Princess and the Frog," the black characters are generally poor workers or jazz musicians, but if any viewers are offended, Disney can point to history.

"The Princess and the Frog" also upends a few tables. Its most outdated stereotype is actually a white character, Charlotte, an antebellum throwback whose only ambition is to land a man. Tiana, by contrast, is independent-minded, and her eventual choice of a mate is unconventional by movie standards: He's not one of her "kind." Instead he's the olive-skinned, vaguely foreign Prince Naveen, from Maldonia. (A fictional place, but still.)

As it happens, Tiana's race is almost moot: She spends much of the film as a frog. Is Disney trying to de-ethnicize the character, or transcend color entirely? (Or, more likely, simply add a new twist to an old story?) That's for viewers to puzzle out. But as a famous minority member once said: It's not easy being green.

http://www.thenews.com.pk/updates.asp?id=92304

Thanksgiving Fun Facts Over the Years.

Though many competing claims exist, the most familiar story of the first Thanksgiving took place in Plymouth Colony, in present-day Massachusetts, in 1621. More than 200 years later, President Abraham Lincoln declared the final Thursday in November as a national day of thanksgiving. Congress finally made Thanksgiving Day an official national holiday in 1941.
Sarah Josepha Hale, the enormously influential magazine editor and author who waged a tireless campaign to make Thanksgiving a national holiday in the mid-19th century, was also the author of the classic nursery rhyme "Mary Had a Little Lamb."
In 2001, the U.S. Postal Service issued a commemorative Thanksgiving stamp. Designed by the artist Margaret Cusack in a style resembling traditional folk-art needlework, it depicted a cornucopia overflowing with fruits and vegetables, under the phrase "We Give Thanks."

On the Roads
Despite record-high gas prices (more than $3.00 per gallon) in 2007, the American Automobile Association (AAA) estimated that 38.7 million Americans would travel 50 miles or more from home for the Thanksgiving holiday, a slight increase (1.5 percent) over the previous year.
Of those Americans traveling for Thanksgiving in 2007, approximately 80 percent (31.2 million) were expected to go by motor vehicle, 12.1 percent (4.7 million) by airplane and the rest (2.8 million) by train, bus or other mode of transportation.

On the Table
According to the U.S. Census Bureau, Minnesota is the top turkey-producing state in America, with a planned production total of 49 million in 2008. Just six states—Minnesota, North Carolina, Arkansas, Virginia, Missouri and Indiana—will probably produce two-thirds of the estimated 271 million birds that will be raised in the U.S. this year.
The National Turkey Federation estimated that 46 million turkeys—one fifth of the annual total of 235 million consumed in the United States in 2007—were eaten at Thanksgiving.
In a survey conducted by the National Turkey Federation, nearly 88 percent of Americans said they eat turkey at Thanksgiving. The average weight of turkeys purchased for Thanksgiving is 15 pounds, which means some 690 million pounds of turkey were consumed in the U.S. during Thanksgiving in 2007.
The cranberry is one of only three fruits—the others are the blueberry and the Concord grape—that are entirely native to North American soil, according to the Cape Cod Cranberry Growers' Association.
According to the Guinness Book of World Records, the largest pumpkin pie ever baked weighed 2,020 pounds and measured just over 12 feet long. It was baked on October 8, 2005 by the New Bremen Giant Pumpkin Growers in Ohio, and included 900 pounds of pumpkin, 62 gallons of evaporated milk, 155 dozen eggs, 300 pounds of sugar, 3.5 pounds of salt, 7 pounds of cinnamon, 2 pounds of pumpkin spice and 250 pounds of crust.

Around the Country
Three towns in the U.S. take their name from the traditional Thanksgiving bird, including Turkey, Texas (pop. 465); Turkey Creek, Louisiana (pop. 363); and Turkey, North Carolina (pop. 270).
Originally known as Macy's Christmas Parade—to signify the launch of the Christmas shopping season—the first Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade took place in New York City in 1924. It was launched by Macy's employees and featured animals from the Central Park Zoo. Today, some 3 million people attend the annual parade and another 44 million watch it on television.
Tony Sarg, a children's book illustrator and puppeteer, designed the first giant hot air balloons for the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade in 1927. He later created the elaborate mechanically animated window displays that grace the façade of the New York store from Thanksgiving to Christmas.
Snoopy has appeared as a giant balloon in the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade more times than any other character in history. As the Flying Ace, Snoopy made his sixth appearance in the 2006 parade.
The first time the Detroit Lions played football on Thanksgiving Day was in 1934, when they hosted the Chicago Bears at the University of Detroit stadium, in front of 26,000 fans. The NBC radio network broadcast the game on 94 stations across the country--the first national Thanksgiving football broadcast. Since that time, the Lions have played a game every Thanksgiving (except between 1939 and 1944); in 1956, fans watched the game on television for the first time.

http://www.history.com/content/thanksgiving/thanksgiving-facts

Oh well, Happy Thanksgiving.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Madonna by Luis Ernesto Gonzalez.

Luis Ernesto Gonzalez from Cuba works as a cartoon animator and has drawing Madonnas as a special hobby.











http://win.madonnatribe.com/tribersatwork/

Racist image tops Google search results for Michelle Obama.

IDG News Service - The top-ranked result for U.S. first lady Michelle Obama on Google's image search engine is a racist caricature that depicted her with the face of a chimpanzee, just below a link to a suggested Google search for the terms "Michelle Obama Monkey."

The same image of Obama, which is currently hosted on Google's Blogger service, has appeared among the top image results on Google for at least two weeks, according to user complaints on Google's help forum.

The Obama caricature does not appear among the top image results for "Michelle Obama" on Microsoft's rival Bing search engine.

The image also does not appear among image results when users search for "Michelle Obama" on its main search engine, only on the results produced by the image search engine.

"Google views the integrity of our search results as an extremely important priority. Accordingly, we do not remove a page from our search results, or images from our Google Images results, simply because the content is in very poor taste or because we receive complaints concerning it," a Google employee named Jem wrote on the forum last week.

Google's image search results rely "heavily on computer algorithms using thousands of factors to calculate a page's relevance to a given query," Jem wrote, adding that Google does remove images from its results when they violate Google's Webmaster Guidelines, the company is required to do so by law, or at the request of the webmaster responsible for the image.

The same message is contained in a company notice titled "Offensive Search Results" that appears as a sponsored result when users search for an image of Michelle Obama on Google.

"We apologize if you've had an upsetting experience using Google. We hope you understand our position regarding offensive results," it said.

A Google spokeswoman did not immediately respond to an e-mail seeking information about how the Obama caricature became the top-ranked image result on the company's search engine.

One possibility is that the user who posted the image managed to game Google's search algorithm, perhaps by using large numbers of inbound links to boost its ranking on the search engine. However, gaming the search engine in this way would violate Google's Webmaster Guidelines, prompting the company to remove the image from its results. Since that hasn't happened, it suggests other factors may be involved.


http://www.computerworld.com/s/article/9141459/Racist_image_tops_Google_search_results_for_Michelle_Obama?taxonomyId=1

Lips.
















Sunday, November 22, 2009

The Cranberries - Zombie

video

It's 1997! Anarchy in Albania.

video

Toxic - Britney Spears Artwork

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Queen B cover on Cosmopolitan (Australia)

Pamela Anderson Tells Her Sons About Sex Tape.

Pamela Anderson has come clean with her kids about the sex tape she made with ex-husband Tommy Lee.

The 42-year-old former Baywatch star and Playboy cover girl told British talk show host Jeremy Kyle it was her appearance in Borat that led to the discussion with her two sons, Brandon, 12, and Dylan, 11.

"I knew kids were going to watch the film and there was a reference to the tape in the movie and they're that age and, you know, people are going to start saying things," Anderson said. "I just said, 'Look, Mommy and Daddy were massively in love, we videotaped everything, everything was videotaped, and you're probably going hear about something at school.'"

During the interview, Anderson also spoke intimately about her turbulent personal life, including her drinking and drug use. She said she used cocaine, and claims she has stopped drinking because it made her "crazy."

"I haven't had a drink in a month, I don't drink," she says. "Champagne — sometimes I'll drink it and I'll get a little crazy, doing back flips and, you know, wrestling people on the floor. But I'm taking a break right now."

Read more @ http://www.seattlepi.com/tvguide/412507_tvgif20.html

Check out what Fred did with a custom wall sticker. - It's the logo from the Singles Collection.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

The Words of the Candle.

Here among you have I risen, and a flame am I now blazing, just a bit of light to give you, that I change your night to daytime, I'll combust and I will wither, be consumed and be extinguished,just to give you brightness, vision, that you notice one another, for you will I fade and tarnish, of me there will be no remnant,I will burn, in tears lamenting, my desire I cannot suffer. Of the fire I am not fearful,I will never be extinguished, If I burn of my desire, try to shine as best I'm able. When you see that I have vanished, do not think that I have perished, I'm alive, among the living, in the rays of truth I'm standing, In your souls do I take refuge, do not think I'm stranger to you, patience was bestowed upon me, thus I glow with steadfast courage, doing good is all I long for, that you not remain in darkness. Forward now and gather 'round meTalk, smile, eat, drink and make merry, love within my soul is harboured, yes, for mankind am I burning, let me melt and let me smoulder, to grow cold I do not wish for. Let my wretched corpse be consumed, for our true God the Almighty, may my lungs scorch, charred to ashes, for mankind I'll melt and vanish, with me all man's joys I'll carry, bear them to the Lord Almighty. Humanity is what I long for,Goodness, gentleness and wisdom, If you'll with me be companions? If you'll love me as I love you,If you all love one another, work not for the Prince of Darkness. Venture towards me, fleeting heart, doCome, approach this fire a little! Though the flame may singe your wings, it's sure to sanctify your spirit. With the torch that here consumes meI the eyes of men have opened, been of them a true companion. I do know them, they do know me, I've observed them all in passing, mothers, kith and kin, and fathers, all of them are my concern still, all who lived here on this planet, even now I see them 'mongst you, for I recognize their spirits. I, like you, have changed, transfigured, changed and altered my companions, many times have I turned into Earth and wind and fire and water. I'm a spark come from the heavens, from the sun I'm glowing embers, through the skies I fly, a-soaring, and live deep within the ocean, often in the soil I sleep or take my rest in fruits and honey, I'm a suckling lamb or kid goat, flower, grass or leaves a-sprouting, so much do I have to tell you, yet I fear my speech will fail me. What's the point to put to paper words this flickering tongue's inspired?

Naim FRASHËRI

Loneliness is productive.

No, seriously.

Being with others might help you to know them better but being with youself will probably help you to know yourself better.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

A Just War.


"A Just War"

You killed our families.

So we will kill yours.

This is a just war,

they said.

And we will go on killing

just until everyone is dead.


David Roberts


(14 June 1999)

More drawings.











Drawings.
















I like to represent men.

Because women are fucking dumb and shallow. They don't know what they want and they whine all the time. I know because I am a woman. But I try to do not act like one. I try hard.

They tremble as I become angry.

I yell at them and every single word that I say sounds like "You're not better than me. Fuck off."

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Albanian man kept two daughters chained for 22 years.

Pristina. A 70-year-old Albanian man kept his two daughters chained for 22 years, saying they were mentally ill and aggressive, local media reported Tuesday. "They were both ill, and I kept them in chains to keep them from running away," the man told local media. "I have fed them and washed them, but I had no time to go and look for them if they ran away," he said.

The two women, aged 38 and 47, were living in a small room with only a blanket on the floor. Media reported that the older sister had her left foot chained, while the younger one had both her hands in chains.

Allegedly, the older daughter was hospitalized in a mental institution when she was 16 and spent seven years there. After she was released, her father chained her and her younger sister.

Following the reports, the two women were sent to hospital. It is unclear whether the man will face charges.

A few days ago, a similar case was reported in Albania. A 26-year- old man was found chained in a kennel, where had been kept for three years.

http://www.earthtimes.org/articles/show/292031,albanian-man-kept-two-daughters-chained-for-22-years.html

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Run.

Push yourself to your limits, then run some more.

Just to know you can.

Hmmm.





Saturday, November 14, 2009

Ironically,

losers always fight. Although they know that they have nothing to loose. To be honest I find them entertaining. I mean, look at them. Lol!

Fan Noli - Dead in exile

Dead in exile

(Elegy written in Berlin on the death of writer and political figure Luigj Gurakuqi, 1879-1925, who had been assassinated in Bari on 2 March 1925 by an agent of Ahmet Zogu.)

Oh mother, mourn our brother,
Cut down by three bullets.
They mocked him, they murdered him,
They called him traitor.

For he loved you when they hated you,
For he wept when they derided you,
For he clothed you when they denuded you,
Oh mother, he died a martyr.

Oh mother, weep bitter tears,
Thugs have slain your son
Who with Ismail Qemali
Raised the valiant standard.

Oh mother, weep for him in Vlora,
Where he bore you freedom,
A soul as pure as snow,
For whom you have no grave.

Oh mother, he did his utmost
With eloquence and heart of iron,
Alive in exile, dead in exile,
This towering liberator.//

Roses are red. Violets are blue.

I like drugs.

He yelled at me: "Will you ever be who I want you to be?!"

I saw the fire in his eyes and said calmly: "Yes. I will."

Then he just walked away.

I felt my body trembling and I whispered to my inner self: "Will you ever be who he wants you to be?"
My inner self said: "No. I won't."
Then I still remember what I did. I yelled on the top of my lungs til a felt the pain: "No. I won't."

But he didn't hear anything. Actually, that's why I yelled. Because I knew that he couldn't hear me.

Albanians' tattoo theory.

We, Albanians seem to love tattoos more than any group of people. I'm not sure why it is but just about every Albanian male has a tattoo and quite a few women too. Well,young girls are getting tattoos, especially in the lower back region. Hey, if your close friend is going to hava a tattoo than you are going to have a tattoo too, because she is not better than you, is she? Yeah. That's why 70% of Albanian girls (inculding me) have almost the same tattoo in their lower back region. Ha ha ha. Cool. Isn't it?

It's Official: Water Found on the Moon.

I posted this to make you think that I care. Hah.

Ismail Kadare - "Crystal"

It's a long time since we saw each other and I feel
I am forgetting you. The memory of you
Dies in me day by day,
The memory of your hair
And everything about you.
Now I'm looking everywhere
For a place to dropp you
A line, a verse, or crystal kiss -
And so depart.

If no grave will receive you,
No marble nor crystal sepulchre -
Will I have to keep you always with me
Half-dead and half-alive?

If I can't find a chasm to dropp you into
I'll look for a lawn or field
Where I will scatter you softly
Like pollen.

Perhaps I'll trick you into an embrace -
And go away irrevocably
And neither of us will know the other.

This is forgetting isn't it?

Kelly Clarkson looks like she ate the skinny Kelly Clarkson.